Easter - Mystical Resurrection - Secret Of Life

Of my talk for this morning, this beautiful, beautiful Easter morning, is the mystical resurrection, Secret of Eternal Life.

And if you just heard the last words of this fantastic beauty that our Fr. Marion Thoreau-Marie gave us, those last words I resurrect myself I resurrect myself I resurrect myself in thee we're going to talk about that we're going to talk about the real meaning the real meaning of resurrection we're going to talk about the meaning as it has been known as it has been taught down through the ages from the very beginnings of its concept in human consciousness we're going to understand together what is death at least in part after all who could have total understanding of anything and who if we really knew if we understood the depths of the mystery of creation would even expect to understand everything only the one the only blessed be he can have the total cosmic understanding we share from the levels from the areas, from the depths of whatever portion of that divine, that one that we have attained to.

And so we will each share in our varying degrees, and in the sharing we will expand our capacity so that we can share even more.

The holy Qabalah as most of us know is the secret wisdom of Israel the secret wisdom of Israel is said to have been given to man at the time of the fall of Adam well let's understand this because to know resurrection and to celebrate it properly we have to understand what has just been said and remember since it is the Qabalists who had the secret wisdom of Israel since it is the prophets having the secret wisdom of Israel who gave us of this treasure of these pearls interspersed with history we have to go to the Qabalists we have to go to those who are responsible for the original writings of this extraordinary record of evolution the bible we have to go to the source and you recall our frotter precious marion sang the source at the beginning that's the name of what he sang I am and it was all to the source so let's go to the source so that we will no longer be tied to the fable, to the sham, to the literal interpretations, to the lies, the lies that have been placed in a historical context out of the ignorance of those who had not been trained in the true wisdom.

Remember then that the Qabalah, being the secret wisdom of Israel, not the Bible having been given to man in its various areas by those prophets those aspirants those initiates those adepts who were trained in the secret wisdom of Israel also known as the Western mystery training system if we go to these sources if we become trained initiated then we come to understand that when adam is referred to actually we're speaking about you you no one else who is adam adam is begotten humanity humanity begotten we are speaking about the begotten as you noticed who is the begotten you Adam remember Adam means generic humanity begotten certainly didn't yod hey vah hey Elohim say let us make man generic humanity in our image is not a child made in the image of what it is inheriting that is in the image of its parents and grandparents and great-grandparents in the line therefore of adam we therefore are told right there in genesis that adam which incidentally in qabalah is called the heavenly adam in order to help us differentiate between the heavenly Adam and the Adam or the begotten Adam or the Adam of evolution which has fallen that is eaten of the knowledge of the fruit from the tree eaten of the knowledge of good and evil that is evolved to the point because of being the begotten that the consciousness can start learning how to differentiate between good and evil that the consciousness can start learning how to make choices that are in harmony with the divine begotten as against the fallen so when we hear the word Adam or we hear the word man if you will recall jesus spoke about himself as the son of man now he didn't say only he was the son of man we want to remember this you are the offspring of man or shall we call it adam because that's the language he used he spoke in hebrew and he spoke in aramaic and this is the original language in which all of this was taught and this is the part of the whole context in which we have to understand the story of Jesus because when we understand the true story of Jesus we're not subject to the nonsense of thinking that anybody is going to take our sins away that is that we're going to be free from having to evolve ourselves, to resurrect ourselves we're going to be freed of the nonsense that says that God would permit anything or anybody body to get tortured killed in order for us to be able to blithely go ahead happily uh forever inheriting a kingdom heaven and earth incidentally because of the fact that somebody else died and that all we have to say is oh whoopee whoopee tra la la somebody else died for me so I don't have to worry anymore about all the evils the hatred the jealousies the materialism I don't have to worry about it at all as a matter of fact all I have to do is just keep declaring that I'm saved I'm saved because I believe somebody else died for me and shed blood for me tra la la boy life is easy I can just go ahead of course naturally being a sinner it becomes necessary for me to feel guilty up to a point occasionally so that I can remain free to achieve things so every once in a while I'll beat my chest you know and maybe take five or ten minutes to mutter some prayer or or mutter some some other kind of nonsense that's like, you know, it's a magic, a hocus-pocus, you know, disappearing act like we have from the legidomane and prestidigitators.

See, Dr. Case used to love magic, and I always loved to use the words to show how well they trip on my tongue, you know, a bit of the conceit that we carry in our personalities.

To help us maintain the humility that we all require so we so we have people who have fallen for this kind of nonsense and they have fallen for it mainly because they are still children of course because they still have not evolved to the point where they know better because they They still follow the path where it is easier to blame other people and other things for one's problems. It's also, when it's easier to blame somebody else for whatever is wrong with ourselves or life, you know, it's also very much easier to say, well, I don't have to do anything about it. After all, it's somebody else's fault that I'm poor or that I'm full of hate or full of jealousy or full of murderousness. You know my mother and father didn't treat me right or I didn't uh I didn't have opportunities I lived in an area in which uh there were there were a lot of evil people so you see you just blame outside when you can blame outside for what you are you can also you have a kind of temperament that can also very readily say well uh then it's uh fine I'm saved I don't have to do anything about myself because after all it wasn't my fault that I killed that I murdered that I stole or that I sold myself out for several pieces of silver sometimes it's one piece that's when we take ourselves cheaply you know we start thinking more of ourselves when we sell ourselves out we insist that there be more silver involved and and if there's plenty of silver then oh we can can find the most beautiful rationalizations for it that becomes a very much more worthwhile deed apparently from the way the world looks at things.

But you see, that's the world that has not yet heard the true message.

And if they've heard it, they haven't had ears to hear. So let's return then to the idea of Adam, fallen Adam, shall we say. Necessary, incidentally, to evolution.

In other words, in order to become completely conscious of who and what I am, who and what we are, we have to go through certain evolutionary forces. We have to go through the experience of gaining knowledge. And remember gaining knowledge can come about only by having pairs of the pair of opposites so when we eat of the fruit even though it makes us perform some pretty horrible things while we are in the less evolved state of our being it is out of the repercussions of the sins of conduct also even sins of omission as well as sins of commission it is out of this that we finally evolve depth strength that we finally evolve wisdom it is out of the darkness of our ignorance that wisdom comes and always has come as all of us have reason to know so eating of the fruit has to do of course with being cast out from the Garden of Eden the Garden of Eden incidentally having to do with the purity of non-experience the Garden of Eden having to do with still having this state of consciousness that is in a state of rapture but that is not capable of knowing consciously that it has the rapture of being and good with God let's face it you know after all God walked in the garden with Adam if you recall with Adam and Eve but if we're not in a state of knowing how to appreciate it how to recognize the the wonder of it then you might say we have a kind of rapture without really consciously fully sharing it we haven't got the divine level of consciousness yet and surely all of us know just through our yesterdays and our yesterdays that we have never been able to truly appreciate anything until we have gone through the kinds of experiences where we've experienced the emotion that you may call loss when we have lost a friend we've known what it is then to be friendless and this has made us appreciate a friend to more consciously value this friend if we have lost a beloved how much more consciously we come to value a beloved usually when people lose someone that is on the physical plane one of the things that occurs is there many guilt why when I had this precious treasure didn't I treat this treasure more beautifully or more lovingly or more kindly we beat our chests because of the fact that we feel we did not appreciate fully in other words it's out of the loss of anything that we somehow come to recognize where our treasures lie you know where do we what put up our treasures what do they consist of and so here we have the part of the essence of the evolution of consciousness well adam then which means generic humanity cast out of the garden of eden which means being cast out of non-conscious awareness due to the fact that man adam is not yet like yod he vahe elohim or the divine union the divine knowledge of union adam has not yet got this knowledge therefore it is in and through working by the what is called the sweat of the brow it is in and through learning what death is that we come come to know what life is and finally what eternal life is who has valued life except they have looked upon death either within themselves or in their environment which is part of the self how have would any of us have ever come to value life to say thank you God for livingness except we've gone through a death of this livingness or lost the presence of a livingness within the area of our awareness so that death which we see is key 13 here death actually serves the awareness of life and in fact awareness of life is impossible possible without the gift of what we call death and do you not recall in the genesis where yod hey vahe elohim said now man is like us that is now man knows he has conscious he has self-consciousness the self-consciousness of I am I and therefore I there is this and that there's the knowledge of the pairs of opposites so yod he said said now man that is generic humanity is like us has achieved this level of consciousness now we must put up a guard in front of the tree of life you remember that you after eating of the knowledge of good and evil the fruit there we must put up some protections lest Adam or generic humanity eat of the fruit of the knowledge of eternal life and have eternal life now doesn't that sound like a horrible father like an awful yod-heh-vah-heh for taking his own begotten and saying hmm now that you're like me I'm not going to let you live forever what kind of a god is that what kind of a father is that and so you can see by just this question how foolish it is for anyone to attempt literal interpretations but look at what was really said in accordance with those who know the secret wisdom of israel who knew it then and know it now, who utilized it then and utilize it now.

Look what was really said. What was really said was, now that generic humanity, man, has attained the capacity to develop through evolution the knowledge between good and evil and make choices consciously, we have to make sure that man is forced into keeping in the change levels because if man knows of his eternalness and experiences continues to experience only his eternal life he's not going to be driven to use this power of self-consciousness in such a way as to serve life evolution humanity to become an expressor or of the good and the beautiful.

He is going to remain a case of arrested development, using the powers negatively and with evil. Therefore, it is only through evolution.

This is what Yod-Heh-Vah-Heh Elohim said, my loves. I know.

I know they whispered it to me.

In the only way that one truly hears anything.

Participation in the level of consciousness the voiceless voice the only real voice that cannot lead astray so in actuality then man had to go through that which would make sure that change occurs otherwise you can imagine you've seen people who remain a case of arrested development emotionally have you not infantile emotions that go into hysterics that they don't have their own way wouldn't that be something to have that something that would stay that way people with powers who remain narrow selfish self-centered hostile without that thing which evolution develops conscience conscience being another word for learning how to correctly choose between the pairs of opposites always in harmony with the divine will in order to finally attain the full sharing of the divine level of consciousness from having just begun and you know being the raw material out of which the growth was to take place so man or generic humanity then had to start going through evolution and this is exactly what has occurred and has been occurring and occurs and what does evolution imply change and key 13 death one of its meanings is change change and always those of you who are taking the lessons know through the lessons you're being trained to understand and to see that that sun for example in this tarot key it isn't setting it's rising dawn is taking place with death dawn not darkness furthermore the river which is a symbol of consciousness is flowing towards the dawn not towards the darkness towards the light not towards the ignorance we have then and what is it that change going towards the dawn what is it reaping because you see you have here what looks like the grim reaper what is the reaper is wisdom you see the male figure that one of its symbols for the head male head is wisdom the female head is understanding the male head is yod he vohe the female head is elohim this is in terms of principles also though in terms of the manifest the figure with the crown is adam beauty the central point on the qabalistic tree of life that you see before you remember adam is assigned as one of the names to this central point which means man the begotten is another name for this central point which means that man and is indicating man is the begotten of the most high but then another name for that central point is king melech is what it's called in its original melech that it is is Melech Adam, or King Humanity.

And there are various other aspects that indicate royalty. Another name for this particular point on the Tree of Life, which is the Begotten, which is man, is called the Mashiach, which means the Messiah. And Messiah means the Anointed, and has been misnamed the Savior, but the Savior in the wrong context. So that the greek word for mashiach you know is christ is christus and christ is a later development from part of its latin connotations also so we have here the redeemer this is from the original these things were taught at the time when man first developed self-consciousness and so the entire history of Qabalah tells us that from the immediate presence of the self-consciousness of generic humanity the begotten the higher forces the angels started to train Adam and the training has been going on through the Western mystery system through the secret wisdom of Israel it has been going on through the beginning of the foundations of the world to this present time training man generic humanity which means each one of you as you attain the evolutionary capacity for it training you to know how to return to learn how to return from whence you came training you how how to become the true king the true king of israel training you how to become the redeemer training you how to understand the meaning of resurrection training you how to overcome death so that you can resurrect yourself in yehoshua that's the real meaning yehoshua being the point on the qabalistic tree of life that indicates when generic humanity or man finally receives the spirit from the yod hey vahe we have the hebrew letter sheen placed in the middle and the hebrew letter sheen take a look at key 20 and what do you see do you not see the overcoming of death judgment right in front of you key 20 judgment don't you see the uh the archangel gabriel blowing the horn but what is being overcome what is overcome death has been overcome that is the hebrew letter when it's placed in the middle which and that also means incidentally the holy spirit and that is the holy spirit that's been referred to that holy spirit is attaining when you when I when any of us attain to the ability the capacity to be receptive remember qabalah means to receive to receive the secret instruction when we finally evolve to the point where we are receptive to this holy spirit then we are able to receive the teaching because we are put through the initiations which have to do with overcoming the final the final evil death now why is it called the final evil because of what we think of in relation to death most of us think of death as being something evil and terrible because though we give lip service to believing in god though we give lip service to believing in survival just watch us react in the face of it and we can see there's a part of us no matter how much we believe with one part there's a part of us that goes into all the reactions and the responses of the same portion of us which has a tendency to sell itself out to betray itself the Judas in each of us which somehow influences us to sell ourselves out for many things even to sell ourselves out to death because didn't Judas sell the a Hesha sell and betray to death for the crucifixion of death I wonder how many of us have stopped to recognize this and this is something we do to ourselves over and over again because of seeking the kingdom of heaven where it doesn't exist seek ye first the kingdom of heaven admonished the rabbi yeshua of nazareth that attained qabalist seek ye first the kingdom of heaven and all these things shall be added unto you said our brother the rabbi jesus of nazareth blessed be he this precious brother of ours and all the other brothers who with jesus and yeshua have been sharing this you see what we must all come to understand that the primary difference between psychic experiences and mystical participation mystical arrival at the innermost levels of being has to do with exactly the point where yahushua was able to say I am the way I am the truth I am the light now a true spiritual experience is that when we become that level of awareness people see a vision outside and they think it's a spiritual experience not so it's a psychic experience some psychic experiences can be very helpful at times most of them lead us astray because we don't know how to interpret them anyway but the only real spiritual experience that is absolutely reliable and that is the true arrival is the experience where our entire consciousness becomes God where our entire consciousness becomes say evolution where our entire consciousness becomes humanity this is having union with our fellow man not the lip service that has given it by so many so when Jesus was able to say I am the way here don't you see these paths on the Qabalistic Tree of Life they're called the 32 paths of wisdom you want to say the 32 ways of wisdom and in their entirety they're called the way a way is a path it is a method here is the method of arrival here is the method of attainment here is the method that has given us for overcoming even death and that was the last thing if you will recall that yaheshua had to overcome and incidentally how many of you realize that the entire story of jesus of nazareth is the story of the evolution and initiation of every single human being on the face of the earth if it was something separate and different what good would it do us what good would it do us if jesus was something different from us how could jesus be helpful to us surely we've all evolved beyond the ability or capacity to accept the nonsense that somebody else is going to be tortured and we're going to go to heaven if that were true I would deny heaven and god himself because that is not divine love or beauty it is not compassion it has nothing to do with the true sentience the divine mind that we share with God no the true meaning is so much beyond a more glorious and it is there the teaching is there for us so what is the resurrection it is the development of the ability and the capacity to continuously accept change all change the change which death is after all yesterday is dead but it sure lives in us doesn't it every yesterday the results live in us but where is yesterday where is it what are you going to do with it well why cling to it then you can't anyway try as you might and then of course there's tomorrow some of us rush after tomorrow trying to cling to tomorrow and how can you cling to something that isn't yet in present experience no only now only now can we resurrect ourselves only now and how do we resurrect ourselves we resurrect ourselves by first of all coming to understand the true meaning then undertaking the methods undertaking to bring about the changes within ourselves so first Jesus is born if you notice when the whole story of initiation is given and that's a story of you Jesus is born according to the story of Immaculate Conception now if as a matter of fact that was stuck in later by people who misunderstood who were not initiates of the secret wisdom of israel and therefore took certain literal uh and made certain literal interpretations mixing in a bit of the paganism of the day so that was written in uh oh at least 100 years after jesus death if you don't believe it just go look up some history and you'll see I'm just quoting history actual history so we have this aspect that we certainly have to come to understand together still what we should realize is that the immaculate conception is being born of the holy spirit indeed because take a look on the qabalistic tree of life you see the high priestess is the path that leads down into beauty now if you will see the high priestess before you if you will look more carefully she is the eternal virgin you see this tarot key she symbolically represents that path or that way from which the one the only blessed be he the crown that which we chant ahea the indivisible it is from that path from that center of beingness that the path of the forever pure and undefiled pores and we are reborn in the Immaculate Conception when we are reborn within any incarnation where we have died maybe even more than one death three times in this one incarnation my beloved ones I have died three times and I mean died I have been crucified three times but only the third time had I reached a point where I was able to be reborn through the immaculate conception only then I'm a tough customer if I and because I'm a tough customer for you it should be a lot easier and I guess that's one of the reasons the lord of the universe did it through me said look if we were able to bring this kind of consciousness in this one ye gods anybody can do it yep and everybody can do it of course when we achieve reach the point where we really want to where we really want to and that is why if you will take a look at the qabalistic tree of life want the desire nature which is associated with victory what is the path that runs to the heshua awareness right there the path of death and incidentally that's the last path before we can experience our divine generic humanity unity with man where we can know I am the offspring of man I am the son of man I am the offspring of god I am the son of god through that that is the final overcoming but as I said three times in this one incarnation imagine I said as I pointed out as fantastic what a tough customer I was and probably am and in certain ways still but the point is I died everything that meant anything to me in my emotions in my desire nature anything and everything that meant life anything and everything that meant hope everything that meant love or belonging it it was taken from me it was not only taken from me but it was torn from me just as the the story the initiation as it must be and I found myself utterly bereft indeed I found myself so utterly bereft that I cried out as each of us has done as each of us has done eloi eloi lama sabah Elohi Elohi lama sabachthani my God my God why why has thou forsaken me I cried it out with Yaheshua and all the Yaheshuas of all the ages my darlings and so have you and so so have you. It's just that I've been fortunate enough to have had to do it three times in this incarnation, because I had enough desire to want reality, so God was extra good to me from my point of view. But I cried out, why hast thou forsaken me? And then finally, Finally, and it wasn't easy, finally, and it was only the third time, the first time no, the second time no, I just died.

And yet, peculiarly enough, I found myself resurrected into another life, a dawning of a life, and I became another Anne with other characteristics. But I still clung to some of that nonsense the dangerous nonsense but finally in that third crucifixion finally I was able to say father take this cup from me if it be thy will nevertheless not my will but thy will be done I was finally able to say that till then no I wanted mine what what I want, what I desire, God, God, I don't want to live unless I have my desire, what I yearn for. And so swept away and I'm dead. A dead duck indeed.

Finally this, and then out of this.

Once that happened, then I knew, I was able to say, at least in part, yes, I see, I had my nine days of darkness.

You know what that means. Nine is the number of completion. Not that I'm complete. Ye gods, I'm not complete. I'm talking about the experience. Once we really have it, that's when the real job can be undertaken, of working on the personality in its fullness. But I was able, truly able, to say, Father, forgive them.

Father forgive them for they know not what they do because I too was handed the vinegar when I cried out in thirst as all of us have had and my the spear slashed my heart as has happened with all of us over and over again in past incarnations and we have all been reborn and reborn and reborn until finally the time comes when with all our heart and all our soul we are able to say I accept thy will and then it is finished at least the cycle certainly is finished and we were able to know destroy this temple and in three days I will raise it up certainly because we become not this temple anymore these have to do with the cycles and the knowledge of whom what we are so notice on this qabalistic tree of life the three paths that lead upward from the outer back to that center to the yahushua awareness and of us is if you go backwards first key 15 which is the devil key 14 which is temperance key 13 which is death take a look at key 15 there to your left the first part that happens and this has happened to you over and over again beloveds think do not think otherwise and as many incarnations it will happen until we finally say with the yeshua of us thy will be done father forgive them they know not what they do I want only thy will and I will work for it and the other qualities that are involved look didn't the spirit lead jesus up into the mountains to be tempted of the devil my beloved the spirit has led every one of us into the mountains to be tempted of our through our own devils that is our own ignorance and weakness over and over again sometimes the temptation works sometimes by golly we were able to see and say get thee behind me satan and more and more we're learning to recognize and say get thee behind me satan because the light shineth ever in the darkness and we're being guided to this awareness this health we're not alone and you and I and all of us together the next path temperance this is called the path of the intelligence of probation and trial what is that but the path the intelligence that the initiation this is initiation and what is it the holy guardian angel is doing the holy guardian angel is purifying the animal nature in us and don't we have to become entirely purified this This is the whole story of initiation and of Jesus.

Baptism, what do you think it means? The purification. It is the work, and we have to purify ourselves. We have to become aware of our own animal nature. And all of this animal nature, we have to work and work on it so that we do not let it act against our brothers, our sisters, so that we know ourselves as son of man, so that whatever happens to us, we will not want to condemn any other human being with jesus we are being trained to say he who is without sin let him cast the first stone haven't we all looked into our hearts and seen after all the personality is such a weak structure in the final analysis yours and mine my darlings and jesus of nazareth do you think his personality was different than ours outside of probably having a lot of charisma which we perhaps haven't attained to to the same degree although charisma can be used in many ways but this transmutation personalities my darling are channels they are channels through which the divine yeshua in us is working to bring about transmutation because you see the knowledge which we have been gaining this knowledge which in Qabalah is called doth it has four infernal rivers and it and mockus the kingdom that is the bottomless part of the tree the kingdom the physical universe this is the fallen universe that we are redeeming in other words god so loved the world god so loved the kingdom this physical manifestation that God gave and gives the only begotten you and me generic humanity man that whosoever believeth on him which means really whosoever experiences themselves with their own work as being the Son son of god and the son of man in other words are you not the offspring of humanity go back in your genetics where do you begin father mother grandmother grandfather great-grandmother great-grandfather where did it start you are the offspring of humanity of man as I am and you are the offspring of god because when you go back far enough before the beginnings I am remember so you and I we both and all and we are really a unity whether we know it or not this has been our and is our journey we are the ones who are redeeming this beauty this loveliness this exquisite fruit the physical manifest universe we are redeeming from the demoniacal forces that had had to be unleashed for evolution to take place, we are redeeming this by redeeming ourselves, by redeeming the portion of the personality which is part of the world.

When we know this, my darlings, with Jesus then we say, Come, learn of me, for I am meek, I am lowly of heart.

You see, true humility knows that the personality is not the divine son. It is something precious yes but it is not the divine son or is it the divine offspring and so those who truly know who what they are who have truly attained who say I am the way I am the truth I am the light these are the ones who know the personality for what it is and say also come come, learn of me, take my yoke upon you. These are the ones who can say, come, lift up thy cross and follow me. You know what the cross is? It's Saturn. Take a look at Key 21. This is Saturn. You know what Saturn is on this level? It is the lead, the lead that some people say we have in the part of the apparel we wear over the posterior portion of the anatomy.

And and it is also that part of us that feels heavy that feels full of sorrow Saturn that holds us down it seems to us and that's also called the teacher and the ancient way of writing this Hebrew letter was the cross and so when Jesus says lift up thy cross we have to lift up the lead so to speak you know from where we have to lift it up and follow me on a tree of life look where that is that is the bottom is part of the tree we're lifting it up from the world God so loves this world and isn't that called the world key 21 we're lifting up the cross and we're following the paths upward to arrive at the place where I am the begotten my father and I are in perfect union my beloved ones I am the resurrection I have died three times in this one life alone alone I am the resurrection I am the life I am the way my beloved you are the resurrection and you are the life and you are the way you are that come the yoke is easy lift that cross let's follow the true yeshua who was a foreverness overcome death itself my darlings death is the greatest delusion of all the greatest delusion the way we have interpreted death it is the greatest nonsense that exists we can face the death of the physical vehicle itself why not you can't kill me no one can kill you you cannot die the difference is I know it I know that's something in me that was never born can never die because I am I am the begotten I also know you cannot die I know you are the begotten but you see you have to come to know it come resurrect yourself in me as I resurrect myself in thee come beloveds we are one in god we cannot die life is forever we are the begotten never a time we were not you are the eternal I am I bow to you I wash I bathe your feet in the unguent oil every one of you and I wipe it with my hair you are the begotten and holy art thou let's walk in this knowledge