Attainment on the Tree of Life - Class 6

I have my favorite Sephiroth. I only have ten of them, as you know. And the eleventh, called Doth, is said to be invisible. It's also one of my favorites.

So what we are speaking about tonight is Tiphareth. Remember, we have, in this course, been going down the Tree of Life, starting with number one, and working our way through in what in Qabalah is often called the lightning flash.

I don't know whether I've pointed out to you that in actuality this lightning flash is said to take place at once and that you actually have the creation of the ten emanations of the Most High taking place at once.

But as I pointed out to those of you who were here Sunday morning when I gave you an interpretation of Genesis number two next Sunday morning we're taking up number three and that'll be a real good hot one or maybe a cold one dealing with Genesis three that starts the ideas of good and evil to show what was really meant by Qabalah and how it has been misinterpreted. In any case, I did point out that there's quite a difference between creation and formation.

And it is in this lack of understanding of the basic language of Qabalah, it is this lack which has brought about such a complete misunderstanding understanding of the mystical teachings of Israel, the mystical aspects of Israel, and has also brought about nonsense and horrors which lasted for many, many years, too long. In fact, one second is too long when a horror is perpetrated, but this is what ignorance will do, of course. As has been said when man believes in absurdities he commits monstrosities or something like that I'm paraphrasing it but that's the general idea and so when we are ignorant when we believe in something that is not we will do things that are terrible beyond description and that is why know thyself and that is why the pursuit of knowledge is considered so fantastically vital in any work that has to do with true aspiration and self transmutation. So we must realize there is a difference between creation and formation. I can give it to you in homely examples. How many dreams have you created in your mind? You couldn't begin to count them. But how many of them have you formed? For instance, on a musical instrument, or on paper, or on a sewing machine, or with a stove, or with a hammer and tool. You see the difference? You can create something in your consciousness, but to form it you have to take this creation and you have to organize it into a step-by-step something which becomes an experienceable aspect of your own consciousness, then it is formed, then it becomes a reality for you. And so creation as such, in terms of deity, is said to have taken place in a flash, and all of Genesis 1, as I've pointed it out in my Sunday morning talks relates to this creation. In other words, in a way you might say it's a pre-decision. It's the dream that we decide to make a reality. It is like thinking up the kind of home we want and mentally in our mind and with our heart planning this home.

But then must come the architect drawing up the plan then we get all the workmen in then we build the house then we live in it and decide whether we dreamed up something good or bad and we discover there are all sorts of terrible things we did and then the next time we build a better house don't we especially when we discover we forgot to uh to leave room for a closet or for something even and much more vital. I've known of people who forgot to put in access to a very delicate area of the home.

And experience here was a very bitter teacher indeed. Well, of course, sometimes experience can be sweet rather than bitter. And a sense of humor helps it to become a great deal more sweet indeed. We must always retain this, especially when we consider how many ludicrous creations we have and attempt to form.

Now then, in relation to this Sephirah that we are going to consider tonight, attainment on the Qabalistic tree of life, remember, always and at no time varies from the idea that we must get to understand each of these ten divine emanations as being actually ten aspects of our own consciousness.

They are the divine emanations of deity, but we are a part of it. We are included in it. We have consciousness.

Therefore, our consciousness is involved in it. And again, it's a homely analogy, but it's a very good one. Just like you can see right in a dewdrop, a reflection that will show you an entire lake, if you're looking just right. We, as aspects of the consciousness of the Most High, can and we do reflect, let us say at least finally, the powers and the creative principles of this Most High.

And the way I like to put it is that we are the way deity actually creates, develops, and experiences the aspects of its own being. That which seems like a mistake, that which seems like a horror, that which seems like devolution, these are merely the processes. And remember again Dr. Case's favorite statement that while perfume is being made, what it smells like shouldn't and couldn't be described in polite society, not while you're going through the process. There are some terrible, terrible odors that are involved in the manufacturing. Yet the end result is very magnificent. It entices anything and everything that has a receptivity to the olfactory nerves. And indeed all the creatures of the universe use these enticing chemicals in order to draw to themselves that opposite or that polarity which will make it feel complete in order to continue being a part of the creation of life the reproductive aspects of the livingness of God as a matter of fact. So here we have in Tiphareth the middle point in Tiphareth which is called beauty we have that part of consciousness that emanation of deity which actually balances the entire tree, as you can see when you look at it. It balances the entire above with the entire below. It is called the mediating intelligence by Qabalah. And by mediating, they actually mean balancing as well, in a way, as being a mediator. Do you remember as children I hope you do when you got mad at somebody and you weren't going to talk to them you usually had a mediator and so you'd send this messenger to the other girl or boy and say I'm mad at you and so I'm not talking to you and then the mediator would run back of what would run to them and say he or she says they're mad and they're not going to talk to you and the answer sent back by the mediator well I'm mad at you and I'm not talking to you either and then back and forth they have a conversation, they're mad at each other, you see, so they're not talking to each other. But the mediator is taking care of something, of actual connection and combination of ideas, bringing about an understanding, so that finally, after all these conversations, going back and forth as to why they're mad or not mad, and what it's going to take them to become glad or not glad, which means making up. That is, making up the friendship again, or whatever it is they think of friendship, or at least getting together again to become enemies again, at least at some context. You have had this mediator, and of course a mediator was always very pleased, because the mediator knows exactly what both sides are saying all the time.

It's a very wonderful position to be in, especially if you have a lot of curiosity and a lot of interest in human nature and a lot of concern for outcomes because of wanting to know what is going to happen. And you know, I have often liked to point out that though some people who are curious are called nosy bodies. What knowledge would we ever have gained in this universe were it not for the curious? Intelligence automatically brings curiosity, and curiosity really is an aspect of consciousness that wants to know everything, which means all sides of a subject. It wants to know everything about everything and some will say well you're aiming too high all right so let's aim too high at least that way we get to know something even if it isn't everything at the moment and in the central point on the tree of life we do have that which is connected by paths to the above as you can see notice these paths it has a connection with every single part of the above It connects directly upward to Cheser, the crown, the one, the indivisible, Ahaya, is the divine name which we vibrate as a word of power to bring this consciousness more completely into our being.

That's the white circle, the beginning of the whirlings on the tree of life. It connects upward directly through a path which is called the path of unity and the high priestess is the tarot key involved in this path and this high priestess as you know is also involved with universal memory that we have here many things that are being said universal memory well only the one self can have universal memory and the one self the white circle, the beginning of the whirling, actually has direct connection with this central point we're calling Tiphareth at the moment, but we'll call it many other names. I bet you're afraid we're going to call them naughty names when we say we're going to call them names. We get so conditioned to the idea about what calling names involves.

And some have called it naughty names, incidentally. Nevertheless this central point is directly connected by this channel of power by the high priestess you see it up here above you uh in taro key number two the high priestess where if you if you want to take a better look which end is it uh over there you know they did all sorts of things while I was in New Zealand, beautiful ones, so that my habit patterns have to be reconditioned so that I can look where they are now instead of where they used to be. Anyway, you see there a larger edition of the idea, and you see this rolled-up scroll, this called Torah. And Torah comes directly from our Hebrew tradition, remember, from the esoteric Israel, which means law. And cosmic law is always involved with universal memory. Always. As a matter of fact, it has to do with that which we might call karma.

Our Eastern brethren would call it that. And you notice the shape of it, of this scroll, really has this whirling cycle that comes from the beginning of the whirlings of the one self. Now that is the path connecting. Connecting, and this means there is a direct connection. In other words, you don't need the central aspect of this tree of life called Tiphareth and Beauty, and I'll tell you what other names in a minute, or two, or three, or ten. Those of you who come regularly already know, but it'll have more meaning for you. Remember, this central aspect on the tree of life is directly connected with no intermediary. It's directly connected with the beginning of all things, with the first thing we can comprehend in consciousness, with that which starts the whole creation, whether it be the universe or any particular part of the universe, which we are. And again, that central point, Tiphareth, beauty, is directly connected by path with the number two on the Tree of Life, which I have spoken to you about, the Divine Father, whose true name is not Jehovah, but Yod-Heh-Vah-Heh, which is really a vibratory formula known only to the Western mysteries, which I have been releasing to you and working with you to help you to start stirring the whole atomic structure of your being into greater awakening and it won't happen overnight you have to do it regularly incidentally when I say you have to come regularly here to do it remember those of us who work here for you and with you have nothing to gain personally in the way of material things because what do we get out of it as one of you said to me so adorably and lovingly I won't tell you which one just recently this week one of you said to me well it seems to me with the ability you have in the talents you could have been extraordinarily wealthy as far as material standards are concerned and you chose to give it up in order to use your abilities for us.

And therefore, I feel that I'd like to give you something nice to sort of show how I feel about your sacrifice. And I was most profoundly touched because I love beauty. We're talking about beauty as we all do.

The truth though is that I have greater riches and greater beauty than anyone else on the face of the earth except those who share the realization of whom what we are with me these are as wealthy as I am and this does not mean that we look down on material things it means we appreciate them in a new and a different way and this is something we have to know directly, but I was touched beyond description by this love and this awareness, because it is true. Before you can remotely really know God, your values certainly must change.

Your values must change. You must become rich in your heart and soul first, before you can can remotely become rich in any sense which will give you security.

And certainly you must all know that the wealthiest people on this planet, materially speaking, are the most insecure as a whole, that is most of them. They're so busy keeping their power and their wealth to keep up their standards of what is security for them that they have lost the ability to enjoy, to be. A cloud, some people think it's ugly. Can you imagine that? The beauty of a cloud, of a sunrise, of a sunset. Beauty.

Beauty is the name of this central theme we're talking about. How can they know beauty when they have to be protecting themselves from the vultures, unfortunately human vultures, that surround them who have standards of wealth that are so false certainly we all must have food clothing and shelter certainly we should all be comfortable to whatever degree we can take comfort you know some people you give them comfort you know what will happen they'll become parasites they won't want to make their contribution to life because they haven't evolved to that point.

And these people have to learn how to understand the differences, the balancing of these factors. We're all on such different levels of perception. I don't mean here in this temple. Here the division is not great.

But consider the division between ourselves and the average thinking and feeling of humanity. And I think you'll see the difference. How at home are you with other people, really, who have values that are the usual values of the world now? You know, we play you a very dirty trick, those of us who entice and lure you into the the spiritual disciplines in occultism.

Because we don't tell you right at the beginning, and why should we?

You might stay with the garbage, and we don't want you to. We want you to know beauty, real beauty. So we don't tell you when you start on this path that you're going to find that the things that were important to you before will turn to dust and ashes on your tongue and you'll find the people you admired before will become immature infants.

You'll feel tender towards them, I hope.

It's all right to feel tender towards them, but you will stop being a pawn, won't you?

You will stop letting the infants run you and your life and your values you will find that that which had meaning to you loses meaning you may go through periods of terrible loneliness you remember the cry of jesus when he asked one of his disciples to watch with him for one hour the loneliness when one doesn't know the same value that is the loneliness for a time but here in this temple I think you notice we help to protect you against the loneliness to a very large degree provided you're willing to participate in its protection and let me tell you it's taken quite a long time to find out how to do it.

In other words, to form relationships where you are going to be able to share the values and be able to share what the ideas are that relate to beauty. But do not be deluded. Those you admired once upon a time, you will not as you grow up spiritually.

And those that you look down upon, you may start looking up to, once you develop the values that count.

Because once you start seeing with the inner seeing of that central point of Tiphareth and beauty, you see differently, and it isn't seeing with physical eyes at all. All. In any case, here we have direct connections with the above in terms of that central emanation of divinity. There is a direct connection or channel. I cannot talk to you about each of the tarot keys that are involved. I'd have to give you the course on the 32 paths of wisdom, and then I'd show you what these connections mean cosmically and personally, and how you you can get control of them. The last time I did that was about ten years ago. It was such a difficult one that I have very cleverly avoided it.

Ever since.

Not until someone gets me cornered will I probably give it again, which they will sooner or later, no doubt.

Because it's a long cloth to bring in all these essences. It's really what you might call a complete spiritual, psychological, philosophical integration training. Not that you get the full training in the class, but you're given the principles.

And of course you receive the awakenings, which we always do when we work here together. At any rate, the Tiphareth point, as you can see, has a direct connection of its own, pathwise, right up to this cosmic masculine principle, which is the Father. It has a direct channel up to the cosmic feminine principle, that which we chant as Elohim, which is the vibratory power power chant for the feminine principle of the formative power of life and again brings the entire inner being, the whole vibratory aspect of the very atomic structure of our inner self as well as ourselves into a new relationship when we work with it together regularly in this group vehicle as we do when we work together in temple and even more intensely in chapter, which is a development from the work we do here. So we have that direct connection. So here, that central point, suppose somebody were fully conscious and aware at that central point.

They would be consciously aware, say they developed the full awareness, because some have partial awarenesses, you see. Not some, all have partial awarenesses. But a full development of that central point would bring about an opening up. It's like opening a pipeline, being able to turn a faucet on and off where you get a full flow. And they could turn the faucet on and off at the time needed where they see themselves as being the aspect of the one, the white emanation, the indivisible, the beginning of the whirling. They could see themselves then Then turning on the channel that brings on in that pipeline, like, you know, you turn on a hot and cold water channel. Suppose you had all varying degrees marked off with their colors.

Analogies are good. They give you an idea of what you can do with your consciousness.

All right, then turning on that particular faucet of consciousness. They could experience themselves and therefore use the force once they've experienced it often enough. And worked with the idea long enough with the techniques to see themselves as a positive masculine expression of life that can project the life essence, the life principle, the seed of being. Tuning into the feminine side through that channel then, the cosmic mother, the divine soul is involved there. The divine soul, the eternal virgin. Remember what Christ is said to have been born from? The eternal virgin Elohim the great seas she is called Mara is one of her names in Hebrew means the great seas you see the mistranslations in the Bible coming from something thousands of years older than the translation and yet real and giving you a complete mystical training for your evolution and a way and a means with much else if only we had a time an opportunity to show it all to you there you have that now this is central point notice the channels I can't see it from here but I know it inside out and upside down because I have a tree similar to that right in front of my couch at home and it's lived with me since 1943. I mean it I don't know whether I pick on it or it picks on me at this point we've gotten so interwoven never have I got a moment when I sit in the place I sit in ordinarily and I said a lot where this isn't taking place inside of me every in-between moment of any kind of other reading or thinking it's there the images are making an impact and that when I sit and think about it then I'm open to the receptivity more because I have continued to permit these images to work in with form at me.

And I have cooperated for a lot of years, isn't it? It seems like yesterday. Remember, I'm only 22 now.

Look how much I can still do. Isn't that wonderful?

Then again, watch that central point. See, it has a direct connection to that which we considered when we were talking about mercy, the cosmic memory also called love benevolent there is the direct channel right there to that one point you go to the other that was that's the blue circle which is that emanation of deity that is on the masculine side of the tree but it's called mercy and I know most of you still can't quite understand why is the masculine side of the tree called uh mercy and the feminine side of the tree called severity and why is the exact emanation or severe called mercy that relates to the uh name for the pillar and and that part of deity and on the other side you have uh the word gabura which really means severity and it's also it's also justice and also means fear you know those are harsh terms and of course we're men who have ambivalence towards women and they're about 99 and 9 tenths percent of the men do isn't that sad I hope you'll start falling in love with the feminine principle before you do this it's necessary really it is and vice versa with you girl both ways I mean it isn't one the point is you're wondering about it but remember I told you I have finally agreed god knows how I think I got hypnotized by one of the archangels and I'll have to have a word or two with him one of these days into agreeing because I have been fighting the idea of giving that type of class for a long time.

It's going to be very difficult.

We're dealing with the most terrible, terrible traumas in the human heart and soul when we deal with the responses of human consciousness to the polarity, to masculine-feminine, to sex, and to really come out and teach you the truth that relates to the spiritual teachings that have to do with marriage, with love, with polarity, with sex, to get you to understand the evolution of the division of the sexes and so I am going to have to be dealing with the things that make you hate, that make you resentful, that make you resistful. If I'm left with two people at the end, this temple is going to be a miracle. As I said, God knows. But for years and years, I have had people actually plead with me to give some such course, because I have had the rare privilege of having been trained completely, as far as one can be trained in this material universe, in the areas of understanding the idea of polarity, which involves, incidentally, good and evil, male, female, and I'm not saying female's evil.

Don't you dare say that. You'll have me to fight with. I'm a good fighter. Not with my fists, though.

But we will go into that aspect of it more deeply when immediately after this course and actually this is preliminary to what will follow to that that is taking in those aspects and I have agreed because I have decided it is time to come out with a little truth those who can't take it will just have to have be upset and if you have enough aspiration you'll get upset and even your upset will be used to transmute and the central point on this tree of life you see as part of what will give you the power to hold on and keep yourself balanced in order to transmute nonsense false teaching ugliness lurid beauty is the opposite of ugliness isn't it that's obvious beauty balances all things what is a more balancing factor I ask you than the ability to be able to balance yourself at a center which means what the ability to see and experience a unity when you enjoy anything beautiful what is happening to you you are at one you are in unity with some vibratory form or group of forms which brings you an exaltation appreciation ecstasy or whatever degree of feeling you're capable of having at the moment or at an incarnational time because we have cycles that are up and down and this too has to do with that whole balancing point there. So as I pointed out from that central point we have direct connections to all the above levels of the lightning flash which although in creation comes into being at once like in the mind suppose all of a sudden in your mind you say wouldn't it be wonderful to go on a picnic with my family it's an instant instantaneous creation right but then you go to work and take the steps there's the idea of deciding what you'll have to eat wrapping it where you'll go going then eating it and experiencing the beauty around it.

So that you see, creating in your consciousness is not the same. This is where our Eastern brethren have led us astray. Not knowingly, not knowingly. Each step is necessary in evolution.

And I myself was quite entranced with the idea that the physical universe is an illusion a delusion and snare and let's get the you-know-where out of it except I didn't want to go to you-know-where I just want to get away from it the point is because some people are able to reach into a part of their nature where they can at least at times have an experience that shows them that the first and most extreme reality is the reality of that consciousness which is forever from forever because there's no beginning and end and this is the power that creates then they start seeing the formative aspect which is not as real in that or from that level let's put it that way from that level why because it is something that's in motion in the creative aspect of consciousness it's all one whom you know your inspiration but in the formative aspect it has to take steps so you have motion and the whole motion makes everything that happened before unreal because nothing holds still it's evolving from the very seed that starts the birth of a flower a plant a creature a human there's no one instance where you where where it is what it was.

Even in the instant of catching it, it's changing. I hope you've all seen in television these pictures that have been taken of growing flowers or roots.

They've done that, where they've taken them in time exposures.

Haven't you seen the glorious motion and livingness? Why, they're as graceful as we can be, you know?

Because they've condensed the time and it is in the living out of the step-by-step time aspect where the thought of illusion and delusion comes in. Qabalah says there's nothing illusionary or delusionary about any aspect of it.

All ten emanations are expressions of deity and it's from that central point that you can know it it's from that central point that you can become a master of that part that's delusion now from this after tonight you see we're going to start taking up so that lower point and what is the lower point you've got to understand because uh to just talk about the central point without showing you what is balancing things is giving you nothing that you can really understand. I've just shown you that that central point or Sephirah or emanation or state of consciousness is in direct contact with everything above, that is, with all the emanations of deity, which means all the vibratory levels of the the creative aspect of the consciousness of deities. However, what about all those below?

What about those below? Well, very briefly, even those who know it, incidentally, let me tell you something, you don't know it.

Nobody knows it.

You can have gone through Dr. Case's Tree of Life lessons, the 32 Paths of Wisdom lessons, a thousand times, and you don't know it.

He wrote these lessons from his own perceptions with the help of the boss. And in the very last year of his life, he said to me, Anne, the older I have become, the more I have realized it's impossible to know all of tarot or Qabalah.

You get to a certain area and level of knowing and what happens? You have the next spiral circle.

There's no such thing as knowing it. Those who say, I've taken a course on tarot, or I've taken a course on Qabalah, or I've read a book on tarot or on Qabalah, and therefore I know it.

It's at a loss for them.

What infants they are. What infants they are. So I tell you as I've told you many a time if you're out to know all about attainment on the Qabalistic tree of life in this ten week course you better go home and read a novel or watch TV I'm giving you seeds and I'll give you more seeds and more seeds and as I teach you I get more you realize this in fact I'm the winner but by when you win we all win together that's what's nice about it if we are willing to keep reaching towards evolution to take the highs and the lows to see this wire whirling cycle with our ups and downs then we are going to keep receiving everything that we can at the moment which will then digest and work into our spiritual cell structure, you might say.

And then the next time, we will open up to the next phases and the next phases. Those of you who take the lessons know when you go back and review them, you think to yourself, my God, what's the matter with me? I don't remember reading any of it. Could you see new things? I know. Those of you who've been doing it have found it. And some of you get worried and say, my God, am I getting senile? Well, why can't I remember it? Is something wrong with my memory?

Well, let me put you at peace. It's true of everyone. I don't care how young they are physically.

Consciousness can absorb only what it can absorb at that moment.

But what you take in builds the seeds, and then it grows into the next flower and the next flower.

And together, if we want to really work and stay with a group viaduct, that will love. And remember, we throw everyone out who decides they don't know how to love. And you know we do. You think I don't expel them. You're mistaken.

You come here and you say, what a marvelous spirit we've got here.

It's full of such love and acceptance.

And they say, yes.

But you'd be surprised how many people I've had to regretfully and with great anguish of soul send away to make sure that this remains.

Because, you know, you get invasions, there are infections, bacteria and viruses.

They are not ready to grow through a group vehicle force. And the force we use here is so vital.

Mind you, even before you get to our chapter, esoteric training, even before because I've been releasing more than has ever been released before and God knows how much more I will only God knows I don't depends on what the inner intuition says but always is more behind that in the way of training and together we can receive and together we can learn how to express and hold these forces in other words it's the balancing factor that I'm just talking about that that's central on that tree of life.

It's the ability to reach above and keep control of the below. It's the ability then to cooperate. It's the balancing factor of beauty.

Beauty. Is there anything more beautiful than loving?

What can be more beautiful?

And I don't mean just loving between male and female.

Though if male and female can't love, they're going to have a very pale love for other things because of having that area locked away, that amount of energy. We need to be able or have the capacity to love in all areas.

We also need to be able to say, you know what, where invasions and infections come in, sending blessings to their unevolved state but knowing that certain beings are not part of what we are aspiring for and will tear down this is the ability to know how to balance the above and the below again then I say to you the below or at least I attempt to start giving you an inkling that below is your personality that central point with the Hesed and Gabbura element that triangle that immediately reflects the above triangle this is like a reflection through a wide ocean or mirror of deity in itself reflecting itself to itself and seeing itself as the next three sefiris which the yellow one in the middle pillar, Tiphareth, beauty, centers.

But from that, then, depends the rest. And the rest of these emanations are what we normally call the personality. Now, most people are confused. They say, well, what is the spirit? What is the soul? What is the personality? What is the desire nature? What is the mental nature? In our Eastern philosophies we read about the Manas or the mental bodies and we read about the desire bodies and we read about the astral bodies and we read about the etheric bodies and we get ourselves all fixed in one set of terminology and then we go to another place and they have them a little twisted and so we get a little confused what one person calls a soul another person calls a spirit one person calls a spirit another person calls an angel you know if somebody dies they can suddenly become angels just because they're dead you know I mean different people they just get all themselves all mixed up in their terminologies and that is why in the tarot qabalistic system we have never been able to lose the purity of the training because we've never permitted this kind of nonsense we teach in the language of your own consciousness and symbolism as you can see which doesn't change for the inner selfhood and even though we may change some of the symbols we keep the same idea of symbol to keep with the period of the time and therefore when we teach you in terms of symbol and relationship of symbol we keep you from getting caught up in all this confusion which is inevitable when we change from terminology to terminology what one person calls peace another person who has other perception would call deadness in other words withdrawal from life and yet another person would call peace another person might say you guys this person is sex mad you know I've seen it happen just because they're free enough to just express demonstrative affection it's misinterpreted by those who've been trained to think of life in one way so we become a tower of Babel and confusion fusion and the only way to do it is to decide on a set of symbols that are true to the evolutionary system and stick with them dr case always used to speak about the metaphysical trance you know they go one place to get it and that's after a month or six months some of them were very persevering and waited a year they didn't get it they went off to the next and the next. Well, they gained a lot of knowledge and this is good. We all need knowledge. But they certainly didn't get illumination. And by God, the confusion that will finally come from all the different terminologies, that's part of what they have to learn also. You have to get to understand that if you want to attain to anything, you have to have a system of communication and this system of communication we have here has existed for at least this minimum six thousand years and that which you've come to hear about as masters and adept this is the system of communication they have used language has been no barrier you that is well the language of words because words can mean as many things to as many people as we have people and don't you know it don't you know it how often have you tried to explain what you think or feel in words to another human being and been misunderstood and how often has your heart been broken because somebody said something to you which you interpreted in terms of of your own emotional or mental insecurity or inferiority or illness or whatever the case may be.

These communications. So we have to learn how to communicate on a level that is true and cannot fail. And there's only one level that can be done. Tiffless.

Beauty. Now I'll give you some of the other names for it. It is the Christ Consciousness. It is called the king it is called Adam Adam remember is the Hebrew word for generic humanity but remember generic humanity or Adam this is the idea of the above if we interpret it from below we're trying to interpret that central self in other words the archetypal man the creative decision of God you know when he went off on this whoopee like you sort of decide on a picnic let's create man after my image but it wasn't he excuse me they Yod-Heh-Vah-Heh-Elohim I mean they had themselves an inspiration alright you think it was a bad one they think it was a good one it all depends on our point of view and we're not in the position at the moment is it, are we, to decide how good or bad since we're in the midst of the process but you've got to chuckle over this really you do to enter into the spirit of deity deity is laughter and love and joy and no matter how much despair we have and we have it it's part of the process it's part of the process but at least we've got to at least know how to evaluate this. So you can in order to get some idea in terms of our human interpretation of the moment and incidentally that's human Tiphareth. If you think Christ consciousness is not human go home that's the whole point didn't the new testament say itself over and over again when it was quoting jesus I am the son of man now what does that mean aren't you the sons and daughters of man and woman which is it doesn't mean anything different they were really this is the interpretation from the Bible man really generic humanity it was one of the side translations they gave it I am the son and or daughter of generic humanity this is what Jesus said he said also I am the son of the father alright see the path there it is he was aware through that channel he was able to open that faucet in his consciousness and see what he was what makes you think you're different suppose so all right so he was 21 years old and you're 11 or 12 years old does that make you different does it make you different is he something you should worship as a god or is he something you should love and revere as a way shower my beloved adored brother who had the strength and the courage to take the way and show me and help me haven't you ever had somebody a little older than you help you through hell all right that idea that were your brother and or sister.

I have. I hope every one of you have had it.

Because that's the general idea, basically.

We're all, as I've told you before, born of the same father. We are all born of immaculate conception.

You don't believe it? Wait till you get the next course. I'll cram it down your throat.

With love for your happiness that's the whole point for your reality for your growth so that beauty will be stronger and more glorious in this world think then that that central point which in Hebrew was called Mashiach and still is and the Greek translation Translation for that is Christus. The Watson is Christ, which we have retained.

Jesus, therefore, the Christ. Yes, I've seen you watch, precious Harriet, darling. Time for a break. Jesus, the Christ.

See, I never have enough time to say anything. Terrible.

Time, I tell you, I've got to have a talk with God about time.

Jesus the Christ means what really and basically it means that the child the the Redeemer is Adam.

That's a Hebrew word, incidentally, which means generic humanity, attained to kingship. You remember how they said, ha, he thinks he's a king, attained to kingship. And what is the kingship over that personality below, which we're going to start talking about, on the emanations, and every bit of it is divine, by the way. Don't you under-talk your personality or you're going to have trouble with me.

Some people like to have trouble with me.

I get a guilt complex if I bawl them out and then I start petting them a lot harder because I'm afraid they get hurt.

In any case, we're going to see what is really meant by the idea of king. And attainment on the Qabalistic tree of life, which means, as you know, ruler. We're going to see what that central point involves.

And that, remember, happens to be us in our higher self.

Whenever you hear terms higher self, in Qabalah most particularly, remember, it means that central portion of your consciousness, which is the direct reflection of the one the indivisible that white circle the forever from forever it is the reflection or the vibratory aspect mirrored in order to experience itself in all these myriad individualistic ways so your eternal individuality is in that point that center and every individuality is a separate from every other as is every ray separate from every other ray of the sun and yet they're all from the one sun and that is the sphere of the sun so that the complete realization of the unity of all of humanity except ye all remain in the ship he shall make a Milan that realization is there right with the realization of the precious uniqueness of the individuality because every ray is a special way of experiencing and knowing beauty and life and love even until it grows up hate and viciousness and misery so I don't go for that other part I mean God makes me realize this is the way you have to grow up.

But I'm at the point in my evolution where I like to fight with God on that portion of the growing up stage. Though God knows, and I know, and we all should know, you have to go through your crawling, creeping period to grow up. Therefore, the one last point before our intermission that is very important. From the point of view of the above, Tiphareth, beauty, Adam, generic humanity, the Redeemer, the Christ Center, is called the child.

Haven't you read about that in the Bible?

The child.

From the point of view of the below, which we will be taking up, it is called the king and the redeemer you see where are you looking from this my darling has been taught in the western mystery for well over six thousand years and it has to do with us we have reached the stage we are the way beauty can be known we are the way deity balances the vast with the infinite with the infinitely small we are the way beauty can be experienced in the subtlety of color and sound we because we in our higher self in our individuality that is imperishable are at that central point though unfortunately we think we're all those other parts which we'll be taking up and showing examples of and see what troubles they get us into and perhaps also how we can get out of them very much more rapidly let's concentrate then for the rest of the speech on the realization that we center our universe because you do don't you you center your universe up down sideways all around you center it might as well be an egomaniac temporarily spiritually speaking though and let's think of the fact that we are from the point of view of that above children emanation we are emanated child of that most high and that therefore to us is given the tremendous amazing and wonderful ability privilege and inevitability of becoming king of the personality and that means physical plane finally the body below, which I'll try to help you understand from a Qabalistic view in a condensed way as we continue with this class, which will also help you to understand the preliminaries we need to know about the masculine and feminine poles, which we'll start up then in our next class.

Now, you're going to be given some information and requests and whatnot on Thanksgiving.

Should I have a word to say about it first or shall I give it all to you beloved ann ryan there huh well you talk about after the break I just want to say this one thing before and then let's get stretched I say I'm dying to stretch and also to be unspiritual and have a smoke the we have decided that because there are some of us who have no families to go to for Thanksgiving that it's very would be very wrong indeed it has been hurting me for many years as I've thought about it in other words my conscience has been bothering me let's let's just put it bluntly.

There are some of us who have no families to go to for Thanksgiving, and here we have a whole country where families meet in order to give thanks to God for all the various things we should be grateful for. And so we have decided that from here on after, starting this Thanksgiving, those of you who have no families to gather with will come here. After all, we are a spiritual family, and we are growing the spirit.

So we are going to be having Thanksgiving here at 4.30 p.m. and you will get the details, but don't think you're coming to receive and not give.

Everybody is going to share, give their part. Our beloved Anne Ryan will be telling you about what is necessary for you to participate in it. Every BOTA member is welcome, incidentally. We are spiritual families if you happen to hate your mother and father and want to come here you come here that's your in other words we're not really limiting to that idea to the fact that you can only come if you haven't got a mother or father or an aunt or a sister or brother but if we are your spiritual family and you have none, where you feel the obligation, because we do have obligations to others, comically. This is understood. And we need to meet with these others together at such a time. But those of you who therefore feel that you have no other obligations and that you need to meet with your spiritual family, please come here, but you must give in your name to our Anne Ryan and decide with her what you're, or if you're going to be able to contribute anything.

Incidentally, the only one that was given to me is, could we not borrow from the wisdom of the Brooklynees and call the lower half the poison personality?

That is, in place naturally of the personality.

And my answer is no.

Definitely no.

I think that God had the most terrific creative splurge perhaps before, during, and since any eternity that he's ever carried on when God thought up the personalities.

The fact that we see so much nonsense has nothing to do with it. This is a growing process. Think of what the personality is. Just think for a moment we're going to be taking up the personality to try to help you understand the whole Qabalistic thinking and training and incidentally the realities because this is proven out and we don't give you a bunch of theorizing and say you believe it or else you're going to hell if we go to hell we'll get out of it eventually anyway I promise you even if I have to go down and pull you out all on my own if I'm there I hope you'll do the same for me see she wants to get fun there she wants to come there that's what I call love that maybe that's the way to transmute it who knows all the demons would get scared they wouldn't know where to go they'd become dissolved they wouldn't have anything to feed themselves with but aside from all this joking truly one of the greatest problems that we have I think in occultism is that uh because of the misinterpretations the mistranslations of the true occult thinking and training meaning people have come to think of the personality as something poisonous, something to get away from, something low, something vile, and the result has been exactly what they think.

In actuality, I think, and Qabalah says without any equivocation, that the personality is is the instrument being built by deity, by the higher self, by your individuality, in and through which to express all the miracles and glories that it has.

The whole idea of democracy is really based on this ideal. The whole idea of the preciousness of the individual is based on this idea. Idea. Think how utterly boring life would be if we all thought the same, felt the same, reacted the same. What would there be? Like having only one color, you wouldn't know colors, would you? Your pairs of opposites, my darling, your pairs of opposites are the very things that give excitement awareness the pairs of opposites evolve consciousness if you have nothing against which to compare and work and think and grieve and hope and love all of these things you haven't got an interplay of those two sides of that tree in Qabalah with which to bring consciousness which is the middle pillar into an active awareness and control of these opposites and the use of it so no personality is something we have to learn to treasure it is true there are some personalities that are not very treasurable and I would be less than honest if I didn't agree with you that there are times when I think some personalities belong somewhere else I won't tell you wear those are just unimportant moments let's not be goody goodies really trying to hide our emotions and to think god is love and everything and everybody is lovely god is love or life could not be but everybody is not lovely in terms of the present requirements just like everybody has a different level of expression at the moment and it is up to us who aspire to help bring the beauty of this central essence of the tree, to help bring and to project, to charge the living essence of human consciousness with the love and understanding understanding, just like a parent will accept and know that it is certainly a burden and a trial to take care of an infant in some of its needs.

No one would call it aesthetic, now would we?

But we love the infant. We know the infant is going to grow out of some of these needs and because of this we look to the future and we do what is necessary to help the infant grow into this next stage and we are happy we have that infant we love it in all its stages nevertheless the less we don't figure that the stage it's in is last word and we do not condemn it for being what it is at that moment on the other hand we certainly are not going to decide to copy its habits are we since we're a little older now what we forget is that the personality of everybody is in a different stage of involvement along with being a unique way that deity knows itself and experiences itself.

Let's love personalities.

They will change.

Let's love the changing personalities. Something in them we will love forever and forever.

That which is growing, that personality.

And when we look into their eyes or feel their hearts, we will know it.

Incidentally, it's when we feel their hearts that we touch the Tiphareth center of their being, the true self, the Christ center. And remember this, that center is also involved with all the stories you have ever heard that has to do with crucifixion.

Have you read about the crucifixion of Christ?

You've read an incorrect story.

Christ has been crucified.

Christ is crucified.

Let's change the words. Shall I give it to you in its original for a moment to help you see it?

And then you will know.

You will understand.

It will start the transmutation of the confusions that are in your heart. Those of you who come from a Jewish tradition cringe in your solar plexus.

Why not? You carry a genetic heritage of people who have translated literally something that is the mystical wisdom of israel and you've had thousands of years of persecution you have a right to cringe you're very great souls that you're willing to start looking at a bigger picture. Those of you who've been conditioned in the dogmatic and exoteric Christian so-called, let's say so-called Christian ideas, you know that you've been taught certain ideas that have put into your heart, even though something, and you may say it's wrong, feelings and emotions. You read in the Bible and the Jews said kill him. Remember?

This is all absolute and complete mistranslation, misinterpretation, taking truth and twisting it and isn't it this what our politicians do for power well those of us who have the spiritual ability to rise to greater heights are not going to be taken in anymore those of us who carry the genetic strain of pain and agony because of the persecutions because people have been conditioned into saying, the Jews have killed the Lord.

They've evolved to a point where they're willing to look further.

Those of us who've been conditioned into saying, hmm, Jews, this has to do with that central point on the tree of life.

Remember, it has to do with it.

Those of us who've been conditioned to think and feel the Jews killed our Lord, the begotten Son of God, the only begotten Son of God, not just the begotten, the only, you may think you are not prejudiced, but what you've heard and what you felt as a child has had a definite that impression in your heart.

I feel your emotions.

You're not happy at the moment. You want to go out of this temple inspired, and we'll try our best to do so.

But I'm stirring your pain that are not yours personally alone, but that you have from your whole genetic background.

That you have from the whole mass mind. I am stirring them. And those of you who can take it certainly will not be able to take the higher vital energies of the Western system.

We have to throw out everything and be willing to open to truth.

Or we're not ready.

We listen to political speeches speeches that tell us Jews want to dominate everything, or we listen to speeches that tell us that Christians are forever unredeemable. We listen to these things, and because we read certain sections and we bring them, we mail them out, and we think we're being spiritual, we take whatever we've been conditioned to think and feel or what somebody's talked us into and we say we are spiritual and we send it out but my darling not until you know what it means to be the crucified Christ do you know what was really taught not until you know the difference between what was said in the reports that are accurate in relation to the birth the teaching and the crucifixion of Jesus of Nazareth and and also incidentally the difference between the Apostles I'm not going to bring in Paul tonight aren't you happy but at least to put into some of the others not until you know the difference and know it in your heart are you going to know what the true mystical teachings have been but know this know this christ is crucified every second of every day of every week of every month of every year it didn't happen 2000 years ago it happened to a man called Jesus of Nazareth who had awareness of who and what he was it happened to every individual who has the same awareness and isn't dramatized in that way at the moment We have a larger population and we have less concentration in the report.

But the truth of the matter is that the crucifixion of the Christ was reported 400 years before Jesus of Nazareth was born.

This is found in the Dead Sea Scroll if you don't believe me go get them read them why?

Because this is your story you are the son of God that is generic humanity child of Cheshire you are that And do you think you're not crucified?

Ye gods!

Boy, talk about a miserable lot of consciousness. That's humanity.

I don't mean you here. Humanity!

Human consciousness is self-aware.

Where human consciousness is that consciousness which must gain control of all its personality, and I shall speak to you about what that means in the rest of this course when we go to what it is and what it isn't, which everyone's confused about. I've just spoken to someone in the intermission who's been with the most intense part of our esoteric training for a good 30 years, or 35 years, who said to me, I'm still confused about the meaning of the group fiction and what it means in Qabalah. Now mind you, someone who who knows our work better than perhaps anybody here? I won't tell you who that person is, naturally. But can you realize how confusing the idea is then? Do you know the hell, the hate that has taken place in this world because of this very idea? And yet, who has taught taught it. Where does it come from? It comes from every esoteric wisdom teaching of the world, not just Qabalah. The crucified Christ has its terminologies in every true wisdom teaching. The crucified Christ, remember Christ, Latin for Christus. Christus is the Greek word for Messiah, which is the Hebrew word for Redeemer, which means light bearer.

And isn't the Son the light bearer, the anointed one, the one who knows who he is, the king which means the ruler of the lower part and lower doesn't mean evil part it means the vibratory levels of life you are that you are the crucified Christ at that center on the tree of life not yet aware children, we're all children and born in the manger you will know what the manger means when we get to that part of that lower area on the tree if you want to know because we'll cover that that whole understanding and realization but remember this and remember carefully the crucifixion of the christ really means the crucifixion of generic humanity, which means the crucifixion of the image and likeness of God, because it is now even higher than the angels. As you will read in the Bible, it is now as we are, it says, knowing good and evil. In other words, it has consciousness, which means it has power.

And that's what we are. And we are growing. And we are not using it correctly yet. Of course not. We're such infants.

But that point on the tree of life is the point of balancing the above with the below and every aspect of it. And it must connect with every aspect. And you're certainly not going to get the way to do it in this course.

How do you like that?

Isn't that a good way to discourage aspirants?

It's going to take a lot more than that. I can show you the way.

There are lessons you get through the mail if you're a good, sincere aspirant. And even after that, we have other methods.

And that doesn't mean you get into them. It really depends on what we see you do with what you've got here. Year and you don't get it in six months or a year either and if you as I've told you so often if you want the easy way I invite you to go and try it as I said we have nothing to gain except to lighten the load of our own hearts and we're not going to lighten it by deluding you those of us who are serving you have given up everything that the world thinks is precious those of us who are are serving you have given it up because we've become so tied in with the pain and the sorrow the agony we are the crucified christ and let me tell you we don't like it why the hell should we and I say that deliberately and actually many of us didn't jesus cry out didn't he cry out father why hast thou forsaken me let me tell you it is no joke but when you love you love when you know unity you know it and you can't help yourself because the higher part of you has control and it's up to you to take up your part. It's up to you to grow up. And only those of you who are able to grow up, to whatever degree you yearn to grow up, who really want to be liberated from pain — because remember, he ascended, he overcame it — it's up to you to help those of us to take on so that all of us can rejoice and sing and have the joy and the brotherhood which is our lot and which we will all have if you want to get it for nothing eventually you probably will I hate to tell you this but you probably will I hope to god you won't wasn't an awful thing to say to you I'm too honest tonight you get no exercise next week we do a very special exercise I bid you goodnight with my love and my soul